RitaCosmos23

As blood runs down my wrists My lights finally fading And I unclench my fists Alone and loathing and hating Listening for the click Till it all makes sense Trying to breathe in Doesn't work Only hurts Underneath my smile I'm dying on the inside This body's numb to the core I'm covered in scars that I can't feel anymore Listening for the click Till it all makes sense Trying to breathe in But it's too hard to let go I hate you I hate this You keep me alive When I want to die That's sick You smile at me Passively It's just another prick

Chasing living nightmares, suffering hell without a care, baring my heart in the dark, these days it's hard to tell anyone apart, running through these fires dark webs in my mind, wondering if I've come too far & if there's enough time to just run where exisiting isn't so hard, steadily beginning to believe I'm where I'm meant to be, roaming where the wild things are

Girl or woman. Boy or man. Remind me which you are again?

Killing my time here, blurred vision, blessed with the power of decision, create our own fate, making our own mistakes, fucking up & I'm still standing up straight, praying god help me rise above it, losing my soul, hoping this isn't false control, chasing a buzz to forget who I was, standing in the bathroom starting at my reflection wishing for a direction

When you find yourself in pain. Cry it all out. When you feel like you can't hold on. Cry it all out. When you feel everything breaking down. Cry it all out. I will lend you a shoulder. Watch warmly by your side. No tear will go in vain. So cry it all out. For you I will stay here. Until no tears fall down.

What a mess am i I think straight can't sometimes To music listening again over and over Hot tears as run they down my face Wrong is what with me? Head is my a tangled mess Speak right I can't even Then sets in the anger Thrash out I begin to in pure confusion Then i fall down I as everywhere sob Tomorrow I repeat the same cycle As my mind then goes into again a mess Help me...

Please forgive me for all my mistakes and sins, I know I didn't always succeed in making my past days a win. Yet,every day, I did try to do the right thing, but meeting so many bad,cruel people made me always fail, So right now, my soul is full of fear, waiting for my time to die,as I know I was very lucky to escape jail. To all my family, who I love so much, I can only say:I'm sorry, please forgive me.

What if today was my last day, Would you be there to hold my hand? What if i ended my life, Would you cry and and wonder why? What if i show you my love, Would you stay or walk away? What if i said i was fine, Would you hug me and say that im not? Would you be there when i want to leave, Or walk away and never return? What if i loved you from the start, Would you laugh or say the same thing? What if i died tonight, Would you even care or would you cry?

I am not good enough                    Never will I be just good enough I am more than good enough         But often I am far less than good enough I excel when I try                            I fail from my fear I try even when I cannot excel         I cower from the new Through my hard work                    Despite energy I waste on fear I am greater than “good enough”     I am lower than “good enough” No matter what others say               I can never be less Whatever they say I am                   I am not just I cannot be                                      Good enough